So. That last post was a while ago. I got fatter since then. It doesn't make me happy to be so big that I can't comfortably sit in an auditorium and watch my child's band concert because my butt and thighs don't really fit in the seat. I still have a block in my brain that refuses to see myself as an obese person so when I catch sight of myself in a window reflection I am still shocked at what I see. I guess the brain tries to protect you from trauma.
It's humiliating to be obese. People don't really look at you. They look through you. People are often condescending. You are less likely to be hired for jobs. I think some people are afraid that fat is contagious.
I started Medifast 9 weeks ago. I have lost 16 pounds so far. Since I started during the holidays I am happy that I have lost this much. The last 2 weeks I haven't lost anything though. I am my own worst enemy.
I need to get more exercise in besides changing my eating habits. Hope that I can get my butt to the gym next week.
